I can’t begin to tell you how relieved and overly, insanely happy I am. The Ex is G O N E!!!! He’s been out a month or so now, and I am so relieved that it’s done. Done, done and done.

I’m finally alone, and have time to myself. I don’t worry about anyone else but myself and those I love. I don’t have any external stress from the ex. It’s been amazing. I have time to think, I have time to be me. I don’t have to listen to verbal abuse. I don’t have to worry about the next issue to deal with, cause there are very little.

I am very happy. Everyday, I’m happier. I’m working on losing weight, on becoming a better person in every sense of the word. I just find myself being happy, smiling for no real reason, and laughing at things like I’m a mad woman. Or maybe a psychotic one. Who knows. ROFL.

I’m doing well. I’m surrounded by some really wonderful people who just add to my life, not make it worse. Things are finally looking up.

I can keep in touch with those who are important to me that are out of town, including finding old friends from years and years ago, that I’ve missed so very much. I can’t believe that I’ve lost touch, they’ve meant so much to me, and some how, we lost touch. I’m sure that alot of the blame is mine, for various reasons, I didn’t remain in touch, but, the past is the past, and now, it’s the present and I’m a different person.

I can’t honestly say that I’ve ever been happier than this moment. I’m fueled with hope, joy and desire. Thank the Lord.

In this search for myself, I’ve come across a few things that I’ve managed to figure out, and things I’ve just about figured out.

I’ve figured out that I don’t need alot to make me happy. Just good people; a little money, and I do mean a little; a bed; and most importantly, breath. as long as I have those, I can’t complain.

I’ve also just about figured out if I’m Bisexual or a Lesbian. I thought I knew for sure. One thing I know for sure, is that I like women. I love them. I desire them much more than men, and recently discovered that quite likely am a Lesbian. I’m not attracted to men in the way that I am women. Women are a strong sexual attraction, I see the beauty in their faces, in their personalities and in their behavior. Men, I appreciate a nice body, I appreciate their kindness, and their personality. But I don’t think of them in a sexual manner, and am quite frankly repulsed by them in that manner. So, I’m think I’m a Lesbian. I only claimed the title Bisexual cause I thought that I liked men, I mean I was married to one, for crying outloud. Well, at least he was supposed to be a man. LOL.

So, that’s what’s going on, there’s more, but I don’t have time to go through it all at the moment. I just wanted to share a bit, so you all know I’m still alive.